Ok Ilenia. Im finally updating.
So im watching Fashion Police right now on E! channel, there talking about who sucked and who didnt at the Academy Awards. how retarded. the people who get to say who is in and who is not, there're ugly and stupid and where retarded clothes. Man, I WANT to do that, I want to be a stylist. Sometimes I hate fashion because its so cliche and cheesy and people are so snobby about it.
To me, Fashion is art, its something either some people will care about and some people will not.
To each There Own.
I mean i admit i look at people a lot and im like, "ugh, what and why are they wearing that?" Fashion is a way to express yourself and I think its fucking awesome.
I dont know what im really talking about, its just all so FRUSTRATING!
I want to be a stylist, I want to be not really famous, but well-known. I just want to be in that fashion world. I dont know why im so into it. I dont necessarily want to be on the E! channel or walking down the red carpet at the Academy Awards, maybe just be known and respected by the stars and everyday people....and go to the after parties...haha..of course.
So Im back in New York now, its fucking cold here. just like Kansas. I went to work today back to my server job. I just feel retarded because im in one the best cities in the world and Im here struggling, so poor, cant really do anything fun, and im a server. I know I have to be patient, but fuck, im a Capricorn, im NOT patient.
I know soon my time will come, everything will come together and i will get my life into gear.
I dont know why i want to rush everything right now. I want this and that, why cant i have this, im envious, and sometimes jealous. I need to tell myself, "SHUT UP NEESA" and just
BE.
live in the present and enjoy everything and everyone around me.
I had an amazing time in Kansas, thank you everyone. Even if I only saw who i got to see for a minute, or a party time, or whatever, i have thought about you and you do make me happy.
Tyler, Dan, Erik, STEPHEN!!, all of sallys funny friends ( Jennifer and Maya) Barrett, Gabe, Carey, Edmond, Tonia, random other people in lawrence i like.
Thank you. I love partying in lawrence, but you see, I wouldnt want to live there, Lawrence is real fun when you have been "living and visiting" for almost 5 years now, like i have. I have my bestest friends there and i know where everything is.
You know I didnt go to any bars the whole time while i was there for 6 days....except the Bottleneck twice (doesnt count) I didnt get to say hi to The Replay or Jackpot, or Taproom...boo hoo.
The next time im going to be in lawrence will be REUNION time in May when Jenna comes from Chicago and I come from New York and well Ilenia, you'll be in Lawrence waiting!! I cant wait and it will be yummy and warm.
I really wanted to post pictures from my kansas time BUTT my dumb ass left my camera charger somewhere!
Ilenia, Jenna, Sally can you see if i left in at your house or dropped it in that spot where I kept all my shit? Its small and gray and fits a little battery! I need it, my camera is dead and I want to upload all my FUGLY pictures! If not then im fucked! Also Im going to have Jennifer get my red notebook I REALLY need that, it has alot of important info in it.
Ok Notes to Everyone:
Sally: Thank you for finding me that confirmation number, sorry if I freaked you out, my phone was going to be dead and i didnt want to be stuck at the airport, also thanks for the funny karoke night, smoking and talking with me (thats always amazing with you) Sal, im so glad you are in my life.
Ilenia: DAMN gurl, you're crazy....thanks for going shopping with me, i thought it was so funny that Bob was tagging a long. you are my best friend and pretty new in my life, but I feel like we have been friends forever and cheesy or not you're in Neesa's life for good so get ready babbyy.
Jenna: my love. what can i say. you inspire me, you and that crazy one ilenia Corrupt me, we're Tomato, Pizza, and Potato Forever. u know how i feel about you....lesbo action! grossss....
Stephen: u smell like cheese, thanks for making Pigs in a Blanket and watching me eat them while drunk. Thanks for making me tinkle with happiness.
Erik: Fuck off! not....i love you. u smell like dog poo poo and its quite attractive and yummy...GROSS....u have such a funny voice. why are you so damn funny..........looking? PS: thanks for letting me spray Pam in your face.
Gabe: i cant wait to party with you in Chicago.
Teeeyyler: POOP.
Man, I wish i could put my pictures on here.
I miss all of you soo much already. I really do, you guys are my home, I miss Bob so much too. We grew so close...in more than one way....hahah....
Au Revoir
LOve you all.
xoxo.
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i get the poop, huh? thats a filler shout-out if i ever read one...
capricorns are notorious for being patient! anyway, i think that if you really want to be a stylist, you will be one, a respected one at that. those things take time. i'm glad we met and grew to love each other. and also got to go shopping with bob even though half the time we were like "bob? oh yeah, he's around somewhere" btw, stephen liked the pin i got him a whole bunch. i'm glad you were there to encourage me to get him the pin even though i thought he'd look homo. i will try to send you something cool from the antique mall before it closes. care package is in your future. i will look for your camera charger too. i want fugly.
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